During the Denver festival many people asked me how I was doing – I often replied, “I am in Heaven.”  I am not religious, but I am deeply spiritual.  I have experienced several transcended states of being, including profound bliss with very expanded states of awareness.  During the festival, I entered into a transcended state of bliss.  The bliss was not just being filled with joy, but a deep sense of everything is truly OK and magnificent.  I call this state — the unbearable lightness of being.

The unbearable lightness of being is the kiss of the Divine.  It is a state of truly being at peace with all.  My spiritual cutting-edge is to allow this state more and more. At times it is unbearable. Let me explain.

After the festival ended, I felt deep sadness.  Sadness at the seeming loss of the state of bliss I experienced for hours on end.  Why I call this a “seeming loss” is that when I was no longer moving as one within the dance of Tango, I no longer experienced the deep bliss.  However, the bliss is always available.  So, why do I not experience this bliss consistently except in Tango?

In Tango I allow myself to let in this unbearable lightness of being.  I do not resist experiencing the depth of my Self in Tango.  When I move with another in Tango, when I connect with my breath, heart, movement, and reach out to my follow to feel her emotions and sense her response to everything I express, I let the Divine kiss me.  Bliss ensues.

I am painfully aware that this bliss is always present, but I just resist it.  Not always, but most of the time.  When I am in the embrace of Tango, I fully connect and express with my core essence.  I could do that at any time, but I often do not.  This is my painful awareness.

And when I allow this bliss in, it can become unbearable.  Unbearable because all the ways  I resist bliss comes up and taunts me – shame, guilt and worthlessness.  However, within Tango somehow I am able to just let all that negative taunting fade away as I focus on full connection with another.  That connection only goes as deep my self-connection.  Deep self-connection becomes easy when I focus on getting my Self out of the way to be able to move, breathe, feel and express with my partner.

I do not have big answers here on how to consistently connect with myself.  However, I do have Tango that continues to show me and teach me how to let in the unbearable lightness of being, allowing myself to be kissed by the Divine.

Every follow I dance Tango with is another opportunity to be kissed by the Divine.  And each kiss is bliss.  If any of you wonder why I have such passion in my pursuit of learning and teaching Tango, perhaps your wondering is fading with these words.