In synchronicity I am gazing upon neon art in a café that states: after you were born, before you die, if not now, when? Not only does this quote in neon affirm my desire to live fully, it offers irony in relation to living as a declaration vs. an inquiry.
A few nights ago in talking to a new-found tango friend, she related how a good friend of hers is all about inquiring in life. I reflected upon living as an inquiry and how I shared in my last blog entry living as a declaration. I still inquire some, yet I have lived the last 27 days as much more a declaration of just being.
Declaring is a choice, and viewing the world through the filter of one’s choice. An example of what living through filter is of a man I know that seems to live through a filter of scientific method, cynicism and resignation. These are not necessarily consciously chosen filters. However, many of the choices I have seen him make show these filters.
I am aware that the filters (beliefs) I hold, whether I consciously chose them or not, influence my choices and views to a greater degree than I will probably ever be aware. Now I arrive at the possibility of choosing a theme of filters I call magic. I have inquired in my life about making this choice since I was 17. I have flirted with this choice often, yet I have not chosen out of fear of possible consequences of living through a filter of magic.
Yet this neon art quote, after you were born, before you die, if not now, when, arouses my desire to stop waiting to live in magic. Living in magic (choosing the filter of magic) is about acknowledging magic: the IMMENSE and BOUNDLESS energetic interaction of life. How would I acknowledge magic? Look for it, notice it, appreciate it, breathe it in, watch for it, wait for it, luxuriate in it, feel it, allow it to infuse my awareness and being, believe in it, smile at it, and trust that magic can be my guide.
Bottom line: live life as a declaration that magic not only exists, but I show up in magic as magic, not some void of meaningless existence. I could choose the belief that life is meaningless and it is meaningless that life is meaningless. One organization I participated in promotes this belief as the ontological cosmology, or basis of all of their technologies. I saw the consequences of choosing this belief. Not what I would choose.
And when it comes to Tango, every milonga affords me the opportunity to witness magic up close. Tango can be a fishbowl of magic. Choosing to witness magic sure beats choosing to witness behavior akin to high school, immature, rigid and un-evolved. Why the hell have I chosen to look through the filter of high school behavior? Why would anyone?
Ulysses: Dave, your declaration of magic terminates your question of showing up. And don’t ponder these words, just reside in magic. Commit to this choice, and you can bend the rules of the Tango matrix…